- My sister-in-law made me a bridesmaid, Allah knows why...she can't stand me. She picked out a dress that is superbly fitted. I have to tell her I cannot where it in front of the men, even with a bolero and hijab. The rest of the dress shows too much of my figure. It's not me. Wait just a minute...why do I have to explain to another muhajibah the reasoning behind not being able to wear a fitted dress?
- Now, I need an abayah to wear over the dress that is dressy enough for the wedding. I don't have any money that can be easily used since we are moving and we need to save. I have to spend more money on top of the bridesmaid dress to get a nice abayah...and the one I found and now love costs $150!
- My mother-in-law was talking about this girl (that I'm not very fond of) to my husband awhile ago. She was just going on about what a wonderful dancer she is, how great she is at putting on make up, blah blah. It felt as if she was trying to say...hey see what you could have married. Anyways, I thought it was wildly inappropriate. A supposedly really religious woman telling her son about another girl's dancing? What?! That's not the point, though. My husband brought the girl up recently, telling me to call her to do my hair for his sister's wedding (the portion that will be separated) since his mom said she's so good at all that. The fact that he remembered her from that conversation pissed me off.
- I wanted to try to do something nice for his family by making a turkey on Friday night. Instead, my husband wants me to do something I find more difficult...paella. Live lobsters. Woohoo! I'm so excited. It sucks because I don't have a pan big enough to make a portion that would feed his whole family. I will have to cook three separate pans of paella. Fun times!
- Hmm...I have tons of work to do for two of my Master's classes and I'm getting really frustrated by them.
- Lastly...(I just want to end the list)...I feel like such a bum lately. I don't feel like looking nice and pretty. I just want to sit at home in my sweats for this four day weekend and be alone.
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
I feel so blah...
I have this awful annoyed feeling growing inside of me. Everything and everyone around me is getting on my nerves. Here comes the list...
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AW sorry darling, make sabr and dont let it get to you soo much. Everything for a reason right...? Here's a biggggg hug for you:) Hope you feel better soon!
ReplyDeleteMay Allah be with you sister!!
ReplyDeleteYou know what?! The best thing for you to do in a situation like this is... not care!!!! Pretend that you're the happiest person alive (even if you're not) and it will eventually make you feel better!!!
Something I do when I'm feeling "blah" is get a looong shower, blow dry my hair to perfection, put on some nice (comfy) clothes, some make-up (just a little) and make myself a warm cup of.. something, and just stay at home doing something I enjoy, like reading. That sure does make me feel SO much better!!! Clean, pretty, comfy, and warm :) lifts my spirits up :) It would also help alot if everything around you was clean and tidy. Try it and let us know if it worked!
Ok I'm going to stop rambling now.. lol!
I hope you don't mind my super long comment! Just thought I'd share my method for "feeling better" :)
Hope everything works out for you iA
ReplyDeletesalam sister,
ReplyDeletei am sorry to hear that all of this is bogging you down.
i know how you feel about your husband bringing up the girl and his mother talking to him about that. I cannot stand my husband talking about other women. He usually doesn't but even when he is innocently talking about co-workers or something, it just makes me upset. His boss is a female who i cannot stand and she texts him all the time. In the beginning of our marriage, we had huge fights about it. I've come to accept it now even though it makes me feel sad sometimes. Its nothing haram and i trust my husband fully but as women I think jealously gets the better of us. But for me, living in modern day and age where affairs, cheaters and adultery is so widespread I am constantly on edge because that is my worst nightmare! May Allah protect our marriages and keep us united with our spouses! Ameen.